Maybe it's Obsession

I've had some really amazing late night convos with Ray Charles recently. And I've been doing research on certain thing pertaining to things I deal with. Anyway, my mind pooped this out a few minutes ago.

Maybe it’s because you missed the feeling all these years
Or maybe it’s because it’s the only way you know
But that would be a lie because you’re aware of other ways
Maybe it’s just the one you love the most
Love shouldn’t be so destructive
You promised you wouldn’t but this has nothing to do with it
It’s about something different this time
You’re reasons have changed and you realize now that
It’s so burned into who you are you could swear it’s in your DNA
Let’s blame it on bad genes again
Well you don’t feel like yourself anymore
Your philosophies change daily and
You just want to get out of this place
It’s a shame there’s no return policy on these things
Maybe we can exchange our faults for other flaws
But right now your disorders give you orders
Let’s call this part acceptance
You know how fortunate you are but you’re still at odds with fate
Because as hard as you try you still feel ripped off
You wonder how many times you would have to count
All the picture frames on the wall
Til it would just leave you alone
It’s rare when it feels like walls are caving in
Especially when your’s are reinforced
And meant to stand the harshest storms
But all you ever get are weak armies and feeble attempts
At breaking through and breaking in
Let’s remember what caving in really means to you
It has nothing to do with walls but rather
Your heart
Well maybe your heart was never weak
Maybe it’s been your head this whole time
What you have mistaken for logic and reason
Are really just irrational thoughts taking over
Either way you should probably stop caving in
But maybe it’s because you missed the feeling all these years
Maybe it’s obsession
You were always amazed with how the human condition heals


Ok, now back to writing about hockey...McNHL in three!

+ Lorelie

smile like you mean it for once

we haven't spoke for a very long time
since your birthday really, but that was just a hello, happy birthday message
a real conversation happened about 4 months ago
doesn't seem long, but it feels like forever
you were absent from my mind for a while actually
which is quite nice in reality considering i should be thinking about other things
and focusing my time on my friends and school
but you've snuck your way back
i don't know how
and i don't know when
but you are there
i was thinking about 2 summers ago
and how happy i was, how you made me smile and laugh
and feel amazing
you brought some much needed smiles into my life
thanks for that. you will never know, but you helped me overcome some real hard moments
i also thought about last summer
and how i pulled away
and how hard it was for me to be the person i should be with you
i've always wondered if you noticed
it seemed like you did
but that could just be me imaging things again
anyways, i'm not writing this to dwell on the past
and i'm not writing this to pretend that i am completely over you
it's more of an apology
something crossed my mind today while i was supposed to be researching for a paper
its more of a what-if -apology
anyways, i'm rambling
i was thinking about how shitty i felt when i found out you had a girlfriend
how empty i felt and how i finally understood what nothing felt like
it was hard to concentrate on school and it was hard to even laugh
then i thought, what if i made you feel like that
let's say you were interested in me
and because i have the inability to let someone love me
i acted disinterested
that means i shut you down
i would have hurt you
in this what-if world, i am truly sorry.
after conversations and trying to figure myself out
its been discovered that i am my own worst enemy
and in the process of this self-destruction
not only am i hurting myself
but i could have hurt you
for the sake of you, i hope you never liked me.
i would never want to make you feel like shit.

sincerely your friend,
ray charles

Assembling the right words to explain this is too hard now

Blah. I'm on four hours sleep from last night, and I need to wake up by 6:30 again this morning...oh well, life of an insomniac. I don't want to go to bed, because I just lay there and think about things I'd rather not thing about right now. That's the worst part, and probably why I stay up so late...so that when I do finally go to bed, I'm tired enough that I fall asleep quicker, without much thinking. Dallas Green got it so right in his song The Sleeping Sickness.

Anyway, I'm excited for my model UN conference next week. Some awesome people are going, no douchebags. And I got the Toronto Maple Leafs in the NHLPA! I really hope I do well. I know the parties are going to be amazing. This is pretty much the largest model UN conference in North America, and all three top model UN American schools show up which is rare (and prob has something to do with the drinking age being 18 in Quebec haha).

Also, my now ex-husband came back to the NHL from Russia this past weekend. The St. Louis Blues signed him to a one year contract, and he was even on the ice today for the pre-game skate against the Kings...and then the San Jose Sharks stole him off his re-entry waivers. So much for being reunited with Colaiacovo and Steen. And I say ex-husband only because I just found out he's been married for like a year and he's expecting a little Wellwood now. So, I think I'm just going to stick to liking him as a hockey player, hopefully he does well in San Jose....which is a team I've never liked much aside from Joe Thorton. But they do have two Finnish goalies, Antti Niemi who won the Cup with Chicago last year, and the goalie with possibly the funnest Finnish name ever, Antero Niittymaki haha (I always laughed when he was on the Flyers back in the day, such a bad ass name).

So, I guess I'll try sleeping now. Goodnight.

+ Lorelie

sex jokes are funny

this entry has nothing to do with the title. i just couldn't think of anything else to write in the title box so that is what i came up with. if you don't like it, go fuck yourself.

the funny thing is, sex jokes are often funny. my friends here are quite sexually active (no big deal, just saying) so jokes about opening your legs fast and white shit on their face is made often or anything that is said that sounds sexual. for example, one of my friends spilled her tea and she opened her legs really fast to avoid the spill. my first comment was 'wow you open your legs like a pro.' in reality, she seems to have her spill reflexes down, but it still funny to say. in that situation i would totally have tea on my legs because i would not move fast enough. oh well. today we were actually talking about cherry tomatoes. i was the brilliant one who said 'i don't like when they explode in my mouth.' yep, it was funny.

i saw this ad online when i was looking for something on google images. i really don't feel like thinking about it as an academic.. but it made me laugh

i have been gathering all the stuff needed for my grad school applications which are do february 1st. i got really good news on tuesday actually. one of my profs wants to do grad work with me which is awesome considering i love her. she also went on about how amazing my paper for her was and it was beyond fourth year level and she could not believe i wrote and gained that knowledge in one term. i didn't want to tell her i wrote it in two days. now that i think of it, i watched toy story three one of the days because i was bored. i remember having a convo on msn as well with snoogs about ryan reynolds and the movie buried or something and she told me theres a snake in it...and now i can't watch it because i hate snakes. anyways, yea that's exciting and really good news. now i don't know which program i want!

what else, my sociology of resistance and revolt prof is amazing. he is so cool and used to/may still be a punk! i answered a question about the sex pistols in class because i wrote a historiography of english punk in the 70s so i read lots about them, which sucked because all authors talked about them as if no one else existed. one thing he said though which was confusing to me was that punk lasted half a year...which i know isn't true and he said today's punk is 'bullocks' and green day is punk. so, either he is now considered an outsider of punk, of which would think green day of today is punk or he still is stuck in 70s punk and doesn't know punk still exists, although its changed, today. he's still awesome. my goal is to talk to him about music sometime this term.

what else. there's a lot of snow here and its so cold today. i was freezing walking home from school. today class was boring. so i was texting j and i was telling her what i was learning because it sounds weird. on the screen it said 'why talk about sex?' and then i got the song in my head which wasn't fair of the prof (for those who don't know what i'm talking about 'let's talk about sex baby' also on bill nye as 'let's talk about stress found below because its AWESOME).

so yea then i went to lunch with a friend. i've been trying to find something good to eat at school since nothing seems to be just what i want anymore. so i got humus and pita. SO YUMMY! i want some now.

here's some really cool shit i've come across recently during my adventures on the internet!

this is the t-dot in the 1900s. amazing. check out more here: http://www.blogto.com/city/2010/12/toronto_of_the_1900s/

this is cute. should be my life. read the story here: http://www.glamour.com/weddings/blogs/save-the-date/2009/04/this-adorable-boyfriend-propos.html

i want to make this for my new camera!

thats all
i am seeing the dilemma tomorrow. it better be funny! i really want theatre popcorn yumm

ray charles

Plans Change and Paths Uncross

Hello blog, ready for another post? There are a few things on my mind I want to write about.

First, if you haven't heard already there was a shooting in Tuscon, Arizona outside a grocery store where local citizens were meeting Democratic Congresswoman Gabriell Giffords. Six people were killed, including a nine year old little girl attending the meeting since she was on her school's student government and was interested in politics (she's also the grandaughter of Dallas Green, the former manager of the Phillies when they won the World Series in 1980, of whom Dallas Green of Alexisonfire and City & Colour was named after - strange connection).

Anyway, there has been a lot of tension in the States especially since the Republicans took majority of the House of Representatives at the end of 2010, and the emergence and growing support of the Tea Party Movement. Now people are saying this shooting had to do with the political discourse and intense polarity of American politics. Especially when we have hard core conservatives such as Glenn Beck and Sarah Pailin. Addtionally, the whole "right to bare arms" in the USA probably made it easy for the psycho who shot these people to get a gun. One reason I'm glad to be Canadian - our gun registry. I'm also glad that in the Canadian political system people are only opponents, not enemies. The USA appears to be more messed up than ever.


I started classes this week, but I still have two old full year courses and three new ones. I'm excited for Ontario Environmental Politics, I think I can really do well in that class and I'll enjoy it. My seminar on Rousseau seems intense, epsecially since there are Masters and Ph. D. students in it, one of whom is my Canadian Political Parties TA! I bought a book on Rousseau's Social Contrat and other political writings, so I'll have to do some reading this weekend. I'm worried because political theory kids are intense know-it-alls and I know barely anything about Rousseau. But the prof seems really nice.

The class I had today was my Environmental Debates Seminar, but there are at least 27 kids in the class and it's not like the seminars Ray Charlers has. The profs are two I've had before and I like them, so that's good. We're doing debates, so I'll have to bring out my inner model UN delegate haha.

I have a two hour break on tuesdays with two of my really good university friends I met during frosh week, I'm really happy about that. And it's two weeks til I go to Montreal for my 1st model UN conference of the year! I just want to find out my position, I guess I will next week. Oh, and I finally bought my Audrey Hepburn poster because the poster people were back at my school this week! It's from the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's, and her crown and necklace are sparkly.



I have photos for one of my model UN conferecnes at the meeting friday and then grad photos next wednesday, oh boy! I need to look good. Leafs are also on a FOUR GAME WINNING STREAK! Yay!

+ Lorelie

I was ready for forever

Hello blog, it's been like a few days lol...but compared to every day during our 63 day challenge it's been a while. Anyway, i feel like talking a little. To start, I just checked my grades tonight after my friend who also goes to my school said his grades were finally online. So i got an 80 in Economic Ideas and an 83 in Environmental Law!! I was totally expecting a lower mark in enviro law, and actually a little bit higher in economics but whatever, i'll take A's no matter what haha. I was feeling really stressed lately about the new semester beginning and the model UN conferences i'm involved in and waking up early, etc. But now I'm feeling more confident since i saw my grades. It's definately relieving. I can't wait to go to Montreal at the end of January for this UN conference. I still haven't heard back from them about being in the NHL committee, but they said applicants would find out later than normal delegates, and normal delegates don't have their positons yet anyway. I'm just really excited to find out lol.

So tonight I saw the movie Black Swan, and let me tell you it is the most fucked up, crazy, super intense, what the hell is happening awesome movie i've seen. It messes with your head and it makes you feel uncomfortable in many scenes (as someone who is kinda prude, i was like omgomgomg lol). The actors are all amazing too. Plus i love ballet and the dancing was beautiful. But it's a psychological thriller/drama, so don't think it's all "boring ballet" or something, because it most certainly is not.

I also wanted to say how disappointed i am that Team Canada lost to Russia in the World Juniors gold medal game last night. They were up 3-0 going into the third, but let them score five goals and the gold in the end. Uggghhhh! I couldn't believe it. The best way to describe it would be what Bob Mckenzie said, "This is the greatest collapse in the history of the World Juniors..." or by what someone who emailed the Dean Blundell show said his eight year old said after the game, "Are you fucking serious?!" That's how I felt. I was sooo sad seeing those boys at the end, watching the Russians celebrate. It's heart breaking. But they did it to themselves allowing five unanswered goals and completely breaking down. Two year gold drought.

And watching those Russian kids sing their anthem (really really badly, like it hurt my ears) was AWFUL. The Canadian boys never sang Oh Canada once during the tournament, they were silent every time they won. I figured they were waiting until they won gold to let it all out. They were also apparently swearing in Russian when they won, saying like "Fuck ya we won, Russia!" and stuff. BOOOOOOOOOO! At least the Russians were too hung over and dumb today to catch their flight. Apparently they weren't allowed on the plane because they were throwing up and were being too loud and stupid. I don't feel bad for them at all haha.

Speaking of Russia, my husband (ok he's not really my husband) Kyle Wellwood was let go of by his KHL team Moscow Atlant Oblast. He had like 5 goals, 3 assists in 25 games from what i remember as of last week. Definately not his best. Even in his most off-periods during past seasons he did better (except maybe the first 15 games of the 2009-2010 season in Vancouver, that wasn't great). I feel bad for him, because he is teamless and that must suck. He's going to try to find an NHL team probably, but I don't know if it will be allowed this late into the season and with all the rules. But teams looking for missing pieces due to injuries or whatever could use him. I don't care who takes him, I just hope things work out for him. I never saw him fitting in with the KHL style of hockey anyway, he should've tried Sweden, Finland or Germany maybe.

Alright, I'm done for now. And ps. Ray Charles, i also have a Buzz Lightyear mug! lol

+ Lorelie

i hate valentines day

i just watched a movie called i hate valentines day

this lady is a florist (typical...) and meets this guy who just bought a restaurant down the street from her shop. he's cute, comes in one day they eventually go out. the catch is she has a 5 date limit because 5 dates is the perfect amount of time to have fun but not get attached. she also thinks that relationships are unnatural and that no person has a mr or mrs right.

what happens is actually expected. she goes on the dates with him, by the 4th date they have sex and she stays the night and the following night. she counts it as 4 dates, he counts it as 5. they run into each other, she says why haven't you called, we still have one more date, he says we had five. she pretends to be joking. they go on with their lives miserable.

the audience eventually finds out that her parents are divorced and her father cheated on her mother. she can't love because she doesn't let anyone love her because she's afraid of getting hurt. eventually on the valentines day the following year, he professes his love to her by singing to her (something he is afraid of doing) on the street while she watches from the window. she runs down, kisses him and he says be my girlfriend? she says yes. the end.

the movie wasn't good but it wasn't terrible either. i was just most surprised that the story was like that at all. fear is often showcased in romantic comedies - fear of dating and getting hurt because of past relationships. i can't think of one that was fear of getting hurt because the most important man in your life was a douchebag. quite interesting, not profound by the least but interesting.

there was a very telling line in the movie - humans have survived this long by avoiding pain.

my life in a nutshell.

ray charles

if things never changed i would title this differently

its weird to think about the situation today
3 years ago we were best friends and now neither of us can even look at each other
and avoid each other like the plague
and when avoidance is impossible, there's this awkwardness in the air
i feel it and i know you do
i rather you not be in my class, especially in a seminar.
but it seems that people who hurt me the most never really go away

taking a step back from the situation and thinking about my situation and others like it
its crazy to think of how things change between people that have so much history together
couples, best friends and even family members experience the same thing i have for the last 3 years
growing up together, sharing some of the most important years and moments of our short lives and the love that goes into a relationship becomes so far in the past
life becomes about now, the feelings of now and the pain of now
its crazy to think that a person who meant so much could all of a sudden mean so little

we live our lives touching peoples lives in some way
whether we made a huge impact or simply are a long lost memory but were important for some moment, somewhere
its an important lesson really - a smile to a stranger could have more impact on their day then we may ever understand

so the moral of the story? its kind of weird to think that there's people out there that i have a history with and interacted with and somehow "touched" their lives
weird

i am drinking milk out of my buzz lightyear mug
jealous? i know you are

ray charles

Resolutions from the Heart

I wrote this in the beginning of January 2010...it was sort of my view at the time...I still hold it, but slightly different. I know I'm a stronger person now.

Darling, I am so sorry
I know I keep putting you through this
Over and over and over again
But I don't know if you're the problem or if I am
It's like a vicious cycle between you and I
Do I make you the way you are or do you make me the way I am?
Either way we're stuck with each other, so let's make the best of this
That is why I'm going to promise you something
I promise to take better care of you this year
Between impractical dreams, caving in and being thrown around
You're still beating every other second fighting your weaknesses
The weaknesses I bring upon you
Whether I'm resurrecting past memories and secrets
Welcoming in "what ifs" and "could have beens"
Throwing you against the wall screaming I'm done
Coughing you up and allowing you to be walked all over
I'm always caving in
I'm hurting you, I'm hurting us
And I'm tired of scraping you up from off the faithless floor
Or collecting your pieces, though each time losing a few more
I'm sorry that scotch tape is holding you together when I can't
And I'm sorry for passing you off as something shiny and whole and open for business
But through the mistakes and second chances
And rough nights with the past and second second chances
You've stuck around, because we need each other
I'm sorry for hoping and dreaming so big, filling you with nothing but air
But these dreams, our dreams, are not so impractical
They may not be the safest, but I am learning that they are possible
So just stick around a little longer and I promise things will change
My skin is tougher along with my will
My ribs, though uneven and protruding on one side, are always there for you
Especially when I forget to be or can't be
So darling, this year will be different, I promise
It's already started off much better than last year did
Together I think we can break this cyclical rendezvous with dead ends
I just need to keep reminding myself, "STOP CAVING INTO YOUR WEAK HEART."
Because our life is depending on it

+ Lorelie

Year in Review - 2010

WITH 2010 COMING TO AN END...

Have you had a good year?
It was a pretty good year, some interesting things happened.

Kissed two people in the same night?
Nope.

Met someone special who changed your life?
Sort of, just some cool new people.

Slept in someone else's bed?
Yep, but only slept nothing else haha.

Been called a bitch?
Not that I know of.

Done something you regret?
I don't thing of things as regrets, because it was exactly what you wanted at the time...but I do think things over repeatedly once they've happened.

LOOKING BACK

January 2010
Who did you kiss on New Years? No one, I was at a party with my friends though.
Did you have a New Year's resolution? Sort of, I wrote a poem about it.
How was the start of 2010? Much better than the start of 2009.

February 2010
Who was your Valentine? Harvard National Model UN...but my friend sent me a rose in committee lol.
When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class? Everyone did lol.

March 2010:
Are you Irish? No, I'm Fintalian!
What was the best part of March? Finishing classes almost, and my friend's bday.

April 2010:
Do you like the rain? No.
Do you get tons of candy on Easter? Yes! So much chocolate.
Did you "love" the month of April? It was pretty good, got to see my friends, a little stressful with school and internship stuff.

May 2010
What is your favorite flower? Yellow roses.
Do you celebrate May 24th? Kind of, we did fireworks when I was a kid. Now I usually just hangout with my friends on the long weekend.
Is May anything special to you? My best friend's bday is in May, and two of my other friend's bdays are in may as well. It's a fun month, summer is beginning.

June 2010
What did you do for Fathers Day? Worked, and then I think my parents barbequed or something and we had dinner together. Got my dad a card lol.
Did you do anything fun during this month? My 21st birthday!!

July 2010
What did you do on the 1st of July? Went and watched fireworks with my friends, we took a photo with our mayor, lost my bro and found him, and took the bus home...it was a mission!
Do you tan in the day? I try to! I like tanning when it's sunny.
Did you go anywhere exciting throughout the month? Just some parties.

August 2010:
Did you do anything special at the end of your summer? Hung out with friends, went to a fun party.
What was your favorite memory of summer? Hanging out with my friends...working a lot but with awesome people.
Did you have a sunburn? On my left arm lol.
Did you swim in a pool a lot? No, boo! I did got to the beach though.

September 2010
Were you attending school? Yep, started 4th year!
Do you like fall better than summer? Yep, it's my fave season but seems to go by so quickly.
Anything special about September to you? School starts.

October 2010
What was your last Halloween costume? Sailor Moon.
What was your favorite thing about this month? Thanksgiving weekend! And Halloween was pretty awesome, aside from breaking my toe.

November 2010:
Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving? We're Canadian, our Thanksgiving is in October.
What was your favorite thing about November? November was a crappy month, usually always is...I had to wear a cast when walking, and I didn't work. Just a lot of school stuff.

December 2010
What are you thankful for? A lot of things, especially the people in my life.
What do you want this year? To figure out my future...and find a job so I can make some money and pay of my loans! Hopefully one in my field.

Where did you begin 2010? At a hotel party.

What was your relationship status on Valentine's Day? Single and loving it at the time.
Where did you go on vacation? No where, I never go anywhere anymore...I could really use a trip!
What concerts/shows did you go to? None, no one ever wants to go to any with me.

Describe your birthday: I had a pirate party! It was a busy day preparing, and despite some awkwardness with certain people, it was a lot of fun. I love my bday but I think this was the last year I'm going to do anything...I've always loved bdays, but turning 22 in 2011 is kind of depressing. Plus I don't think having a party will work anymore anyway.
What has been your favorite moments? Model UN trip to Harvard, the other model UN conference I moderated, mine and my friend's bdays, all the parties I went to and times I went out, apple picking, hanging out with awesome people.

What was your best month? Hmmm... February, June, October.

What was your worst month? November, always is.

Made new friends? Yep.

Favorite Night out? I have a few.

Overall, how would you rate this year? I think 2009 was better, but 2010 was still a lot of fun. I learn new things every year.

Been snowboarding? Kind of, but not legit...but I ski every year.

Are you happy to see 2010 go? Maybe.

Stayed single almost the whole year? Yep, the entire year...I made a resolution sort of to stay single for 2010...at the end of 2009 I loved it, and I loved it up until the summer of 2010 pretty much.

Were involved in something you'll never forget? Yes.

Tripped over a coffee table? I don't think so lol.

Dyed your hair? No, not since like grade 11.

Came close to losing your life? No.

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live? Not this year.

2010: FRIENDS & ENEMIES

Did you meet any new friends this year? Yes I did!

Did you hate anyone? Came clos to it.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? No, of course not. I'm friends with people because I want to be.

2010: YOUR BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake? YES! I had a chocolate cake with chocolate icing and mocha filing and blue writing, and I decorated it piratey! Best cake ever!

Did you have a party? Pirate party!

Did you get any presents? Of course!

2010: ALL ABOUT YOU

Did you change at all this year? I usually do.

Did you change your style? Sort of, I think I matured.

Were you in school? 3rd-4th year.

Did you own a car? Sadly no.

Did anyone close to you give birth? No one close to me, just people I know.

Did you go on any vacations? Ugh, no.

Would you change anything about yourself now? I want to be more motivated...I want to be more ambitious...I just want to be able to find some kind of job and move on with my life.

2010: WRAP UP

Was 2010 a good year? I said yes already.

Do you think 2011 will top 2010? I don't think so.

IN THE YEAR 2010 I CONFESS THAT I....

Kissed in the snow? No.

Had your heart broken? Not this year. Not since 2007...I made sure I wouldn't let anyone ever be able to get to my heart again.

Done something you've regretted? I told you there are no regrets, because it was exactly what you wanted at the moment.

Painted a picture? Yep.

Wrote a poem? Soooo many.

Visited a foreign country? Does the USA count?

Cut in a line of waiting people? Don't think so.

Told someone you were busy when you weren't? Probably.

Lied about how old you were? Don't think so.

IN 2010 I..

Broke a promise? I never make promises I can't keep.

Lied? Ya, but only to my parents so I can actually do things normal people my age do lol.

Disappointed someone close? I don't think so, I hope not.

Hid a secret? I hate that I have secrets. I hide things well.

Pretended to be happy? Occasionally.

Slept under the stars? No, wish I had though.

Kept your new years resolution? Not really. Sort of.

Forgot your new years resolution? No, because it's written in the third page of my current journal.

Changed your outlook on life? I think that changes quite frequently.

Sat home all day doing nothing? So many times. I'm a bum.

Learned something new about yourself? Mhm.

Made a change in your life? Yep

Found out who your true friends were? I think so. I have a few.

Met great people? Some amazing people, and some not so great people.

Stayed up til sunrise? Don't think so.

Had friends who were drifting away from you? Ya, kind of...but I've made it my goal to never lose a friend again.

Had a high cell phone bill? No, I pay the same amount each month.

Spent most of your money on food? Hahaha, maybe while in Boston.

Gotten sick? Ugh, hello new year's eve...2009 and 2010!

Liked more than 5 people at the same time? Bahahaha, maybe if hockey players and celebrities counted!

Became closer with a lot of people? Some people yes.

Song that reminds you of summer 2010? Some party songs, like "Your Love is My Drug" by Kesha, and "Your Man" by Down With Webster.

Lost any friends this year? None I wouldn't want to lose.

+ Lorelie

Last day of our 63 day challenge!

Happy 2011! So i know i've missed the last two days but i'll make up for it now. Basically on new years eve i worked all day and then went to Ray Charele's place...and then i came home and something decided it wanted me to die lol. I don't know if it was like a stomach flu or food poisoning, but i don't think i've been that sick in a really long time. I threw up almost every half an hour, and i ate nothing today. I got no sleep last night and then i fell asleep this afternoon finally. I've been on gravol which makes you super tired too. I have no idea why it came on so suddenly. I didn't drink that much, and i know what drunk throwing up is like because i've done that many times before lol. Last night was different, plus i have a fever and chills that come and go. So weird.

It seems I can never have a good new year's eve, no matter what i do. Two new year's eves ago i got in a horrible fight with my mom and went to Ray Charles house, which was the only good thing that night. I got really drunk too and the next moring was not fun. Then last year I went to a hotel party and got all dressed up, but i had a terrible cold and couldn't stop coughing. Then yesterday i spent with my friends and had lots of food and good convos, but then i got super sick. Ugh. Maybe i should just stay home next year lol. My fam cancelled Mandarin tonight too because i me, and i was so looking forward to it!


Day 62 - A picture of one of the best days of your life.

There are a few:

- Apple picking and autumn adventure with Ray Charles and our friends
- Montreal and Quebec City trip in 2009
- The two model UN trips i went on last year, Queens and Harvard (Boston was amazing!)
- Days i've sent with friends or family just hangingout and having fun


Day 63 - A picture of something important, something very important.

There are so many things in my life that are very important. My friends and family obviously, i love them so much and i don't think i'd be who i am without them. My dreams and goals. My writing. And for something material, it'd be all my journals and notebooks filled with lyrics and poems. And my stuffed bunny rabbit and my stuffed teddy bear.

+ Lorelie

day sixty three - the end

Day 63 - A picture of something important, something very important.

lots of things are important, very important.
i would say obviously my friends and family
but a material object, a something, hmmmm
i would say my teddy. ive mentioned him before but i bring him everywhere and he is always in my bed. there is a comfort that he has always and will always bring to me.
i would also say photos are really important to me. the memories that were created when they are taken and the fact that those memories were made are important to me.

well, today is the final day of the challenge. its weird to think that for the last 63 days we have been answering questions. it was quite nice to have a routine like that, knowing that in my busy schedule, i took 10 minutes to reflect on something.

maybe we will start a new challenge, i am not sure yet. i was trying to think of something else we can do. its nice to keep our creative and thinking skills working on something other than school

happy new year! 1-1-11 woooo. interesting
dates like that are cool. i am in fact born on a cool date

that is all from me
goodbye sixty three day challenge, hello 2011!

ray charles