matters of the mind

i don't know what to do
but something has brought you back to my mind
and it feels wrong that you are on my mind
and its so annoying
you were gone for at least a week
since i saw you last
the day we all had dinner
and you brought your girl
and i ignored you
whether you actually noticed or not
i don't really care.
we didn't talk and the goodbye was similar to how one would say farewell to one that doesn't matter.
but since then, i've "met" a boy.
one with blue eyes, tall, cute and quite the distraction.
you left my mind for the first time in over a year.
it was nice, i felt clear
something had been lifted off my shoulders
but of course, you came back.
came back like that stupid cat that came back and had a song written about his escapades...
it feels different though
still wrong
and a waste of time
but instead of making me happy that i am thinking of you and giddy because you make me smile, its annoying me
because its a waste of time
and i want you off my mind.

since i can't say the words myself, goldfinger can.

If Only
If only I was taller
If I had a million dollars
maybe then you'd be with me

If only I was eighteen
and had the courage
of the A-Team
maybe then you'd be with me

But for now I'll have to dream
about your smile 'cause you're not
here and all I want to say is
that I really miss you

If I could surf a little better
If I had Sumner's sweater
maybe then you'd be with me

If only I had more time
If I had Mike Ness' hairline
then you'd want to be with me

If only you weren't so fine
If only I wasn't so blind
I'd find a way
to make you stay
then maybe I'd see you

If I woke up
with all these things
Would it even change your feelings
None of that is even me
But for now I'll have to
wait another week
to see your face and all I want to say is
that I really miss you


ray charles