tomorrow, tomorrow, i'll love you tomorrow?

tomorrow is a day that i have been waiting for

for eight months.

eight months of waiting

and i don't even want it to go.

i rather miss it.

i am praying i sleep in or something.

i am so nervous.

and i never get nervous.

it feels like the feeling before i wrote my first university exam

or the time i made a speach in class.

i have a knot in my tummy.

what is wrong with me!

i don't want to see him.

at all.

eight months ago i would trade anything to be where i am
(not only because i am practically done the school year and
soon to be moving back to gotham for the summer)

but because i would be seeing him again.

i wish i could go back to last summer.

being all giddy and flirty.

smiles and laughs.

and of course and most of all, still the possibility of him being interested in me.

but now, theres no way.

gahhhhhhhh.

it just sucks.

this is someone who i feel like i wont get over anytime soon

and will always be able to make my heart smile

and will be in my life for years to come.

tomorrow is going to suck to see him and talk to him.

i know i will fall all over again.

k lets not dwell on matters of the heart

i've been reading all week and im sick of it.

and im not done!

why school why!

i have to go back to neverland (the city i live eight months of the year

where i attend school...its a happening place.

unlike peterpan though, i age and my brain is concerned with more than

mermaids and the lost boys and captain hook) on sunday.

yippee.

not.

i have three exams next week.

monday, wednesday, thursday.

and then im DONE!

so excited.

soooooooo excited

haha.

well i should be off. i need to get up at six am tomorrow

i need sometime to make myself look presentable since i will be tired

and seeing him and others i haven't seen in a while.

wish me luck? please

-ray charles