So, my Vancouver Canucks were taken out by the Dirty shithawks last night...game six was a fail, two years in a row (on the exact same day too!). However, tonight the Habs won their series and will be moving on (Ray Charles is very happy)...so i guess i should support the remaining Canadian team, and i do like some of their recent additions. As a Leafs fan, it hurts to say this...but...go Habs go...sigh.

In other news, boys are dumb, this work placement shit is dumb, i still don't know about my internship, i already need to catch up on reading and my class just started, i did my nails a purpley blue colour, i'm very tired but i don't want to sleep because then i just sit there waiting to fall asleep thinking of awful things i shouldn't be thinking about...also, i am excited for the new model UN conference my school's UN society is planning, i'm def going to be involved. Now here's something i jotted down in my notebook last night...


I'm just waiting for the moment when he breaks you.
When he snaps your weak bending spine in two, leaves you gravolling on your knees, begging for the reasons, for the answers.
Because I know he will.
It doesn't happen to the best of us. It happens to the most naive hearts.
You should never had tried to let im repair your broken pieces, because in the end it's all just scotch tape wrapped around your heart with shaking hands.
Because he wasn't enough, and he was afraid, and he is a coward.
You've been taping up your heart for years, and you're in need of something better.
You need someone man enough to perform surgery blindfolded, to gently tear away your scarred skin and cracked ribs.
Someone who can give you new pieces to replace the bruised, rotting vessels.
Because scotch tape can only go so far.
So when this coward leaves, and he will leave, don't let him take any pieces with him, you've already lost enough to past cowards and liars.
Don't let him bend your spine to the breaking point because he's being so damn difficult.
Don't fall to your knees on the faithless floor, or try to get answers out of him.
Accept it and scrape your dignity together.
Because he was not strong enough to hold your weak heart, or bright enough to be your lighthouse.
Cowards run away.
So please, don't allow him to break you when he was never able to save you.
Don't allow him to take anything when you could never give him anything sobre.
And most importantly, don't allow him to leave with anything you're not ready to give up.
Now, go get your scotch tape.

+ Lorelie