Hello Blog!
It seems I've been neglecting you ever since we finished our 45 day challenge. Well I'm back now! I had quite the exciting weekend, lots of partying for my bday. I got to hangout with all my different friends which I love. I also went to a club downtown which was quite interesting. The one bad part was that my friend broke a bone in her foot while we were out! So it's not just me who does that ahahaha. Clearly, drinking + heels = broken feet.
So there's been a lot going on with me recently. I'm not sure how I feel about lots of things, people, and my morals. I don't know anymore. Maybe this just comes with age. I do know that when I drink I do very, very stupid and ridiculous things. But I'm ok with what's happened I think. Fate has a strange way of messing with us. Like today something completely unexpected happened and I'm back to my old self. Baaahhhh it's confusing. I feel older and wiser, and reflecting back on my naive, innocent, optimistic grade twelve self, I know I've changed a lot the past four years. I think I want to start new. I've learned how to let go and move on, but I need some work on being a stronger person. I'm getting there. Every day it feels as though something changes.
+ Lorelie
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
day forty five - the end
day 45| have you any superstitions?
hmmm no. not really. the only thing i really think would be considered superstitious involved school. i can tell you that i have written every midterm and every exam wearing my beatles sweater and with my hair straight and i am afraid that since i have done so well while wearing it that it must be the sweater. i actually know its not - its totally about comfort. i do my hair and my makeup to keep me calm, to ensure that i don't freak out about the importance of the day. clearly it has worked, got me through 4 years of undergrad with a gpa over 80 and the ability to get into grad school.
go beatles sweater and straight hair!
other than that, i guess i believe, but don't partake in, superstitions in hockey - playoff beard/hair, goalies tapping the posts etc etc.
well...45 days later and here we are!
what is next blog... what is next
ray charles
hmmm no. not really. the only thing i really think would be considered superstitious involved school. i can tell you that i have written every midterm and every exam wearing my beatles sweater and with my hair straight and i am afraid that since i have done so well while wearing it that it must be the sweater. i actually know its not - its totally about comfort. i do my hair and my makeup to keep me calm, to ensure that i don't freak out about the importance of the day. clearly it has worked, got me through 4 years of undergrad with a gpa over 80 and the ability to get into grad school.
go beatles sweater and straight hair!
other than that, i guess i believe, but don't partake in, superstitions in hockey - playoff beard/hair, goalies tapping the posts etc etc.
well...45 days later and here we are!
what is next blog... what is next
ray charles
Black magic woman I believe in superstition
Day 45 – Have you any superstitions?
It’s the last day of our 45 day challenge! Wow that went by fast. Some of the questions were quite interesting and made me share things I’ve never shared, and some questions were also kind of silly or boring. Today’s question is if I have any superstitions. I have many. When I was a kid I used to have a lucky rabbits foot (I still don’t know if it was real or fake) I used as a key chain. I still throw salt over my shoulder if I spill it. I love cats so I don’t believe in the black cat crossing your path superstition, that’s just silly. I’ve walked under ladders and broken mirrors before too, but nothing bad has really happened.
For me, superstitions are more than these old irrational ideas, mainly because I have mild OCD. The definition states a superstition is a “credulous belief or notion not based on reason or knowledge.” People with OCD have many superstitions since their compulsive behaviours are sort of like acting out a superstition in a way. For example, if you spill salt you throw it over your shoulder to avoid bad luck. This is similar to doing a compulsive behaviour to avoid something bad happening. I do a lot of weird things like counting and tapping, and I guess these can be considered superstitions. You should see me during an important hockey game. I will sit in the same position even if it’s uncomfortable if my team is doing well lol.
I also looked superstition up on Wikipedia and found this: “The Roman Catholic Church considers superstition to be sinful in the sense that it denotes a lack of trust in the divine providence of God and, as such, is a violation of the first of the Ten Commandments. The Catechism of the Catholic Church states superstition in some sense represents a perverse excess of religion.” Well I’ve never been a very good Catholic then haha. But I doubt God actually cares about any of this stuff.
I got in a good hour of tanning today! I hope it rains soon so that friday will be nice, because that's when I'll be celebrating my birthday!!
+ Lorelie
It’s the last day of our 45 day challenge! Wow that went by fast. Some of the questions were quite interesting and made me share things I’ve never shared, and some questions were also kind of silly or boring. Today’s question is if I have any superstitions. I have many. When I was a kid I used to have a lucky rabbits foot (I still don’t know if it was real or fake) I used as a key chain. I still throw salt over my shoulder if I spill it. I love cats so I don’t believe in the black cat crossing your path superstition, that’s just silly. I’ve walked under ladders and broken mirrors before too, but nothing bad has really happened.
For me, superstitions are more than these old irrational ideas, mainly because I have mild OCD. The definition states a superstition is a “credulous belief or notion not based on reason or knowledge.” People with OCD have many superstitions since their compulsive behaviours are sort of like acting out a superstition in a way. For example, if you spill salt you throw it over your shoulder to avoid bad luck. This is similar to doing a compulsive behaviour to avoid something bad happening. I do a lot of weird things like counting and tapping, and I guess these can be considered superstitions. You should see me during an important hockey game. I will sit in the same position even if it’s uncomfortable if my team is doing well lol.
I also looked superstition up on Wikipedia and found this: “The Roman Catholic Church considers superstition to be sinful in the sense that it denotes a lack of trust in the divine providence of God and, as such, is a violation of the first of the Ten Commandments. The Catechism of the Catholic Church states superstition in some sense represents a perverse excess of religion.” Well I’ve never been a very good Catholic then haha. But I doubt God actually cares about any of this stuff.
I got in a good hour of tanning today! I hope it rains soon so that friday will be nice, because that's when I'll be celebrating my birthday!!
+ Lorelie
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I walk with my head down because I know I'll never impress you
Hello, Blog,
Today at work was horrible. They always leave me alone in charge with barely any help, it's not right. It gets super busy, especially on a holiday like father's day, and I'm trying to do everything. Ugh.
I watched Rory McIlroy win the US Open tonight, he's only my age too! He's kind of adorable and has a cute Irish accent. Go Rory!
Anyway, I'm watching the MMVAs right now, waiting for City and Colour to perform. Another Canadian band I like is Down with Webster, they already performed and they were pretty good. Avril Lavignr is currently performing, excuse me while I vomit. She's just standing there attempting to play guitar, which means she isn't moving around because she has to focus on getting the chords right. She looks pissed off like she doesn't want to be there at all, and possibly drunk. What happened to her...
Day 44 – Kill, bang, marry, chill of your choice
Kill: Stephen Harper for obvious reasons, Simple Plan just needs to go away already, and I guess if Ray Charles is going to kill Taylor Swift I'll have to kill Paul Walker
Bang: Tyler Bozak, Drew Doughty, Cam Hunter of Down with Webster
Marry: Kyle Wellwood (ahahaha maybe not anymore), Dallas Green, Dave Grohl
Chill: Seth Green, Jack Layton, Taylor Swift, Care Failure of Die Mannequin
+ Lorelie
Today at work was horrible. They always leave me alone in charge with barely any help, it's not right. It gets super busy, especially on a holiday like father's day, and I'm trying to do everything. Ugh.
I watched Rory McIlroy win the US Open tonight, he's only my age too! He's kind of adorable and has a cute Irish accent. Go Rory!
Anyway, I'm watching the MMVAs right now, waiting for City and Colour to perform. Another Canadian band I like is Down with Webster, they already performed and they were pretty good. Avril Lavignr is currently performing, excuse me while I vomit. She's just standing there attempting to play guitar, which means she isn't moving around because she has to focus on getting the chords right. She looks pissed off like she doesn't want to be there at all, and possibly drunk. What happened to her...
Day 44 – Kill, bang, marry, chill of your choice
Kill: Stephen Harper for obvious reasons, Simple Plan just needs to go away already, and I guess if Ray Charles is going to kill Taylor Swift I'll have to kill Paul Walker
Bang: Tyler Bozak, Drew Doughty, Cam Hunter of Down with Webster
Marry: Kyle Wellwood (ahahaha maybe not anymore), Dallas Green, Dave Grohl
Chill: Seth Green, Jack Layton, Taylor Swift, Care Failure of Die Mannequin
+ Lorelie
day forty four - my list
day 44| kill, bang, marry, chill of your choice
disclaimer: ladies, ladies, ladies (and gents if you like it), there is a great amount of hottness below.
kill
i don't like her music or her. i think she is fake and sings about nothing of importance to me.bang
i would bang paul walker
he definitely looks good naked
he also looks so good just staring at you...looking deep into your eyes
his eyes just scream come lay with me on the grass my love
he looks good chillen too, always important for a good bang
he also looks good in a suit at the end of your bed, counting your payment. ahaha.
i've been in love with paul walker since i was 13. banging would be a dream come true no doubt. the only problem is, it seems like he is all body and face and eyes and smile and nothing else. his voice bugs me. it would be one of those i'd love you if you never spoke and took your shirt off type thing, hence why i'd only bang him
marry
i'd marry ryan reynolds. cute, hot, talented and fucken hilarious! he's canadian too so hockey? timmies? oh yea love connection
you need to be hot to wear a vesticle
yumm
nice casual attire, i could compliment him well in my amazing sense of fashion
cutie
killer body!
ryan is cute but also seems really cool and really funny. hes the whole package!
chill
i would chill with jason mewes and kevin smith, jay and silent bob.
both are so funny and so cool. plus jason is adorable
its getting hott in hurrr
ray charles
Saturday, June 18, 2011
day forty three - dear seven year old self
day 43| if you could tell your seven year old self anything, what would it be?
hi seven year old ray charles,
be strong, be brave and know that everything will be alright eventually. the next few years will be the most difficult and significant years of your life. i know you want to run, i know you want to hide, but you can't. you need to be strong, you need to be there for your mom and your brothers. i know this is difficult and know that it will never be easy but you will grow and become strong and you will be able to take on any challenge. he should have loved you, he should have never left but don't dwell on his actions - he is not worth it. remember the important people and show them how much you love them. lots of scary things will happen in the next few years, but you have dano and buddha who will always be there to squeeze your hand. you may never feel like a kid again but remember to have some fun and laugh often.
your confusion and fear will subside, things will become clear and several changes will occur that will completely change the direction of your life - and you will love it, trust me. you will be surrounded by loving people and you will heal. i know you have a knot in your stomach, a lump in your throat and tears in your eyes, but those will disappear soon.
at the moment i know you can't see the end, you can't get rid of the pain, the confusion and the feeling of being lost in your own world. you feel abandoned, disappointed and wronged. your world has been turned upside down and you have no idea how to get it back. you will be alright. you may not believe it now but you will smile, you will laugh and your pain will change as all this stuff will become a thing of the past.
this will not define you. it will not be who you are. from it you will grow and learn but you will be more than this. you will not want to change your past as it will teach you so much. you will accomplish so much in your life, have amazing friends and loving family. our brothers will become less annoying by the time you are in high school and you will find a great bond with both of them. mom will smile again and laugh again. hug her and kiss her often and don't forget to tell her how much you love her and appreciate all that she has done for you.
you will have several ups and downs with friends but eventually you will find the best. promise me that you will speak your mind and let people know when they are hurting you. oh and silent treatment may not be the best thing to do.
keep your head up, you're doing just fine. smile. its okay to cry. maybe even dance a little.
love exists, it really does. not everyone will leave you and not every man will hurt you. love and let yourself be loved. have as much fun as possible.
aliens do not hang outside your window and spiders cannot harm you - use a tissue. snakes will be your enemy but that's a story i'll let you find out about on your own. short hair is good for boys but maybe not you.
keep doing well in school and keep having fun,
your much older self
ray charles
hi seven year old ray charles,
be strong, be brave and know that everything will be alright eventually. the next few years will be the most difficult and significant years of your life. i know you want to run, i know you want to hide, but you can't. you need to be strong, you need to be there for your mom and your brothers. i know this is difficult and know that it will never be easy but you will grow and become strong and you will be able to take on any challenge. he should have loved you, he should have never left but don't dwell on his actions - he is not worth it. remember the important people and show them how much you love them. lots of scary things will happen in the next few years, but you have dano and buddha who will always be there to squeeze your hand. you may never feel like a kid again but remember to have some fun and laugh often.
your confusion and fear will subside, things will become clear and several changes will occur that will completely change the direction of your life - and you will love it, trust me. you will be surrounded by loving people and you will heal. i know you have a knot in your stomach, a lump in your throat and tears in your eyes, but those will disappear soon.
at the moment i know you can't see the end, you can't get rid of the pain, the confusion and the feeling of being lost in your own world. you feel abandoned, disappointed and wronged. your world has been turned upside down and you have no idea how to get it back. you will be alright. you may not believe it now but you will smile, you will laugh and your pain will change as all this stuff will become a thing of the past.
this will not define you. it will not be who you are. from it you will grow and learn but you will be more than this. you will not want to change your past as it will teach you so much. you will accomplish so much in your life, have amazing friends and loving family. our brothers will become less annoying by the time you are in high school and you will find a great bond with both of them. mom will smile again and laugh again. hug her and kiss her often and don't forget to tell her how much you love her and appreciate all that she has done for you.
you will have several ups and downs with friends but eventually you will find the best. promise me that you will speak your mind and let people know when they are hurting you. oh and silent treatment may not be the best thing to do.
keep your head up, you're doing just fine. smile. its okay to cry. maybe even dance a little.
love exists, it really does. not everyone will leave you and not every man will hurt you. love and let yourself be loved. have as much fun as possible.
aliens do not hang outside your window and spiders cannot harm you - use a tissue. snakes will be your enemy but that's a story i'll let you find out about on your own. short hair is good for boys but maybe not you.
keep doing well in school and keep having fun,
your much older self
ray charles
Dear seven year old Lorelie,
Day 43 – If you could tell your seven year old self anything, what would it be?
The world isn't the way you think it is. It's much bigger than your classroom, your school, your neighbourhood. Most people are not like you, not everyone is idealistic, naive and kind-hearted. By the time you're finished highschool almost all the kids in your class now will no longer be in your life. But stay close to your family and your best friends because they will always be there for you. When you're fifteen you will go through what could possibly the most difficult time in your young adult life, but you will get through it. Find faith and you will find strength. By the time you turn eighteen you'll have your heart broken for real after years of endless silly crushes on silly boys. But it's not the end of the world. You will accomplish great things alongside your friends, and when you feel like they're drifting away just talk to them. Follow your heart, follow what you're passionate about. Believe in people and in the world no matter how cruel you think it is and no matter how disenchanted you become. You will eventually suck at math and calculus, but you don't need that to study politics and the environment. Do what you love to do. Listen to the lyrics and write your own. Swim as much as you can, ski as much as you can, play outside and learn to love nature. Meet new people, make friends, discover new things and never lose hope. With all it's sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Finally, you're not going to become a sailor soldier like Sailor Moon when you're older. But everywhere the world is still full of heroism.
The world isn't the way you think it is. It's much bigger than your classroom, your school, your neighbourhood. Most people are not like you, not everyone is idealistic, naive and kind-hearted. By the time you're finished highschool almost all the kids in your class now will no longer be in your life. But stay close to your family and your best friends because they will always be there for you. When you're fifteen you will go through what could possibly the most difficult time in your young adult life, but you will get through it. Find faith and you will find strength. By the time you turn eighteen you'll have your heart broken for real after years of endless silly crushes on silly boys. But it's not the end of the world. You will accomplish great things alongside your friends, and when you feel like they're drifting away just talk to them. Follow your heart, follow what you're passionate about. Believe in people and in the world no matter how cruel you think it is and no matter how disenchanted you become. You will eventually suck at math and calculus, but you don't need that to study politics and the environment. Do what you love to do. Listen to the lyrics and write your own. Swim as much as you can, ski as much as you can, play outside and learn to love nature. Meet new people, make friends, discover new things and never lose hope. With all it's sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Finally, you're not going to become a sailor soldier like Sailor Moon when you're older. But everywhere the world is still full of heroism.
+ Lorelie
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