if things never changed i would title this differently

its weird to think about the situation today
3 years ago we were best friends and now neither of us can even look at each other
and avoid each other like the plague
and when avoidance is impossible, there's this awkwardness in the air
i feel it and i know you do
i rather you not be in my class, especially in a seminar.
but it seems that people who hurt me the most never really go away

taking a step back from the situation and thinking about my situation and others like it
its crazy to think of how things change between people that have so much history together
couples, best friends and even family members experience the same thing i have for the last 3 years
growing up together, sharing some of the most important years and moments of our short lives and the love that goes into a relationship becomes so far in the past
life becomes about now, the feelings of now and the pain of now
its crazy to think that a person who meant so much could all of a sudden mean so little

we live our lives touching peoples lives in some way
whether we made a huge impact or simply are a long lost memory but were important for some moment, somewhere
its an important lesson really - a smile to a stranger could have more impact on their day then we may ever understand

so the moral of the story? its kind of weird to think that there's people out there that i have a history with and interacted with and somehow "touched" their lives
weird

i am drinking milk out of my buzz lightyear mug
jealous? i know you are

ray charles