day 22| catharsis time— let something or someone go
here is a list of what i'd like to let go of:
1. my stuffed animals in my summer room
i have way to many and i cannot get rid of any of them. i like to watch those hoarder shows when nothing else is on tv...so from what i have seen on that show it seems that i am a stuffed animal hoarder but i don't go out and get them, people legit buy them for me. in my room most of my stuffed animals which are not cool enough to be on my bed sit on a chair in the corner (for shame!). i was actually looking at them the other day and i could only find one that i would get ride of. each has a story to it and some memory attached
2. old clothes
i seem to have turned into a mommy when it comes to getting rid of old clothing. in my dresser the two bottom drawers are dedicated to old clothing. why? i have no idea really. i guess they are cute or whatever and i want to be able to keep them. is it normal to keep clothing that you wore when you were younger? i understand baby clothes but i know for a fact i have two sweaters i wore when i was in grade 3 - one said when i grow up i want to be a doctor and it had a girl doctor and the hair was yarn that you could touch. the other was a shirt that said something like just vegging around with a bunch of googlie eyed vegetables. i actually wore the vegetable shirt to a religious retreat in elementary school and a nun commented on how weird it was to have vegetables...i told her she wishes she could wear it. now that i think about it, awesome response from an 8 year old! take that penguin
3. moments with him
i would like to be able to let go of what happened two summers ago. i don't want to forget at all because it was a very happy time and thanks to those moments, i was able to smile and laugh like i used to. sometimes though, i seem to catch myself thinking about things that were said and things that were done. i sometimes still wonder what it all meant
4. an old "friend"
for the most part it seems that i have let things go. since we had a talk a few months ago and she apologized for one of the meanest things someone has ever said to me, i seem to have been able to start anew what ever that is. it seems that all is forgiven but sometimes when i think about her being around (like at snoogins bday the other day) i get kind of disgusted or annoyed. disgusted kind of seems to harsh but i can't think of another word. i guess i just remember certain things that were said and stuff and i just can't stand to want to be around her. i guess this is part of healing
ray charles
here is a list of what i'd like to let go of:
1. my stuffed animals in my summer room
i have way to many and i cannot get rid of any of them. i like to watch those hoarder shows when nothing else is on tv...so from what i have seen on that show it seems that i am a stuffed animal hoarder but i don't go out and get them, people legit buy them for me. in my room most of my stuffed animals which are not cool enough to be on my bed sit on a chair in the corner (for shame!). i was actually looking at them the other day and i could only find one that i would get ride of. each has a story to it and some memory attached
2. old clothes
i seem to have turned into a mommy when it comes to getting rid of old clothing. in my dresser the two bottom drawers are dedicated to old clothing. why? i have no idea really. i guess they are cute or whatever and i want to be able to keep them. is it normal to keep clothing that you wore when you were younger? i understand baby clothes but i know for a fact i have two sweaters i wore when i was in grade 3 - one said when i grow up i want to be a doctor and it had a girl doctor and the hair was yarn that you could touch. the other was a shirt that said something like just vegging around with a bunch of googlie eyed vegetables. i actually wore the vegetable shirt to a religious retreat in elementary school and a nun commented on how weird it was to have vegetables...i told her she wishes she could wear it. now that i think about it, awesome response from an 8 year old! take that penguin
3. moments with him
i would like to be able to let go of what happened two summers ago. i don't want to forget at all because it was a very happy time and thanks to those moments, i was able to smile and laugh like i used to. sometimes though, i seem to catch myself thinking about things that were said and things that were done. i sometimes still wonder what it all meant
4. an old "friend"
for the most part it seems that i have let things go. since we had a talk a few months ago and she apologized for one of the meanest things someone has ever said to me, i seem to have been able to start anew what ever that is. it seems that all is forgiven but sometimes when i think about her being around (like at snoogins bday the other day) i get kind of disgusted or annoyed. disgusted kind of seems to harsh but i can't think of another word. i guess i just remember certain things that were said and stuff and i just can't stand to want to be around her. i guess this is part of healing
ray charles
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