Day 36 - A picture of you on your birthday/favourite holiday
CHRISTMAS!
this is mine and j's lovely christmas tree
this is my ADORABLE stocking with buttons alllllll over it
this is my tree back home in gotham
i love christmas
i love the happiness in the air
i love the colours and the lights
i love the presents and giving presents
i love the food
i love being with my friends and family
i love watching christmas shows and movies (something i can't wait for when i get home)
and i love the snow
on another note
i looked up the grad application process
no wonder no one goes... ugh
i always get nervous about those things
that im going to fuck it up or something
i have a rant today. i know some people know how annoyed i've been getting with my love life but i think its getting worse. im pretty sure this entire city is having sex and in love and dating and having guys say lovely things to them and being all lovey dovey. its really annoying actually, yes people can be happy and whatever but it feels like its constantly in my face, hearing stories that finish with "you know?" and i lie and say i do, but i don't fucken know. i don't get why you are so happy, why you sleep with some guy every chance you have with no emotional attachment. i don't know how you make a decision to give your number out or what its even like to be asked for one. stop acting like i know things. its annoying.
i just want things to better i suppose. i don't want someone to tell me i'm pretty and something will happen eventually. i want it to happen. i'm just bored. 21 years is to long to be the innocent one. its also to long to feel like i'm behind everyone else...
i need to go home where everyone hates men
five days.
ray charles
CHRISTMAS!
this is mine and j's lovely christmas tree
this is my ADORABLE stocking with buttons alllllll over it
this is my tree back home in gothami love christmas
i love the happiness in the air
i love the colours and the lights
i love the presents and giving presents
i love the food
i love being with my friends and family
i love watching christmas shows and movies (something i can't wait for when i get home)
and i love the snow
on another note
i looked up the grad application process
no wonder no one goes... ugh
i always get nervous about those things
that im going to fuck it up or something
i have a rant today. i know some people know how annoyed i've been getting with my love life but i think its getting worse. im pretty sure this entire city is having sex and in love and dating and having guys say lovely things to them and being all lovey dovey. its really annoying actually, yes people can be happy and whatever but it feels like its constantly in my face, hearing stories that finish with "you know?" and i lie and say i do, but i don't fucken know. i don't get why you are so happy, why you sleep with some guy every chance you have with no emotional attachment. i don't know how you make a decision to give your number out or what its even like to be asked for one. stop acting like i know things. its annoying.
i just want things to better i suppose. i don't want someone to tell me i'm pretty and something will happen eventually. i want it to happen. i'm just bored. 21 years is to long to be the innocent one. its also to long to feel like i'm behind everyone else...
i need to go home where everyone hates men
five days.
ray charles
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